Friday, July 16, 2010

Where is the dreamer...

Here comes that dreamer...let's kill him, throw him into one of these cisterns and say that an animal devoured him, then we'll see what becomes of his dreams....
Gen. 37:19
Did you read that verse?
Now, no one would argue Joesph was a bit of a brat and a braggart with his dreams and all...
but can you imagine your brothers plotting against you, selling you into slavery, putting you in the way of suffering and troubles...
Joseph was a little tainted and frustrated against them
ANGRY
{and probably asked WHY...do you ask why? do you see the stuff happening around you, in your life and just want to scream WHY WHY WHY WHY... I do...oh I do...}
The thing about life, Joseph's or mine (or yours...) circumstances will make us angry...they will break our hearts, they will knock the breath from us...
we'll wonder,
we'll question,
we just want to know why
and we'll be angry
and we have to decide
(we always have to decide)
what are we going to do with that angst, that fire in the pit of our stomach, that need.to.just.punch.something. ...
we can hold it
we can clinch our fist, our nails can dig into our flesh, the veins popping for the tension of holding.on...
see if your hand is clasped (a picture of us ...holding our anger...)
you are imprisoned
because you are angry alright...
(and YOU MAY HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE...life sometimes simply stinks)
you are holding on, clutching, occupied,
limited
isolated
but
if you open your hand
it's free
you can pick up,
create,
control,
choose,
what to do with your hand...
holding on the the anger
FEELS RIGHT
but it's a prison
opening up your hand
letting it go
that's harder
but look
now
your hands are empty
free
touch some possibilities
clasp some forgiveness
go ahead...
what they meant for evil in Joseph's life...God meant for good
for good
it's all going to be good
all.
going.
to.
be.
good.
now,
scoop up some grace
let it slip through your fingers like sand
and see
just see
what becomes of your dreams...

3 comments:

Ginger said...

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Skipper said...

This is just beautiful, Cheri. Thank you!

Betriska said...

Yep. Right on target, Missie. I'm learning to unclench my fists and BREATHE.