Thursday, August 16, 2012

This clear and present danger...

It was August 19, 1994.

I had a date.
with the man I would go on to marry...
the man with whom I would share eight homes in five states...
the man I who would give me four children...
the man I would also divorce.

A date. A movie. Harrison Ford.

And we began.
And in that beginning I never, ever imagined the ending.

And I never, ever imagined the now.

Yet, now, is where we are...

August 16, 2012.
Almost eighteen years have passed.
Life happened.
Memories were made.
Laughter was shared.
Hearts were broken.

who knew that a movie title...would hold such significance so much time later...


Today I sit here at my keyboard and contemplate...

that man I loved...
and left...

is not the same man...
he is different...


a disease , cancer, now wages war in his body...
and he fights.

and he fights to win my heart, again...
and he fights to be a father to our children...
and he fights to beat an opponent he never challenged...

and I think about that movie...
and Jack Ryan ...
and while I would never fall for the Hollywood love story ending...
all neat and tidy...
because it just doesn't happen that way...

I am so thankful for the chance...
to roll the film again...
to see God work and deliver us...through...

this clear and present danger.

Will you pray for my family?

Please.

My heart will be forever thankful.


15 comments:

Becky said...

Yes I will pray for you!! I will pray for you entire family. You mean so much to me and I love you quite a bit!! :)

Angela Giles Klocke said...

I am praying...and you are so loved! (((HUGS)))

cathiejo said...

Oh sugar, I've never stopped praying since that very long ago time. I will continue to pray. I don't know if you ever knew of Ty and my journey, it happened 5 years in. We are at 36 now. Neither of us could have known but my gosh our Lord knew. He resurrected the dead in our life in the emotional and physical, He will yours, I know it, I knew it, I claimed it as my own. I love you to the moon, I am honored to carry a tiny tiny tiny part of your burden before the Lord.

SueBee said...

Oh, you got me with this one...so many tears. Praying for you all without ceasing, my dear friend. And also praying that someday, somehow, I will have the opportunity to hug you for real. Lots of love to you.

Stacey said...

Oh you know it. ((hugs)) I love you and am praying for you all.

Gracie's Heart said...

...praying for all that is on your precious heart. (((hugs)))

Cathy N said...

Love and prayers being sent to you and your precious family.

Carrie C :) said...

and of course I will continue to pray as always and like SueBee I pray for the day that I can hug you as well. And if that day doesn't happen here on earth, I know where I will be able to find you, the amazing faithful woman that you are ;)

Pattie said...

Yes, always.

Donald said...

You know I cried, not that it is hard to get me to do these days.

I was both saddened by what was, and joyful for what can be.

As you wish.

Renee Fitts said...

Love this and love you....praying always... always wanting and hoping for the best for you and your sweet, sweet family.

Heather Truett said...

I will happily pray... once I quit crying and sniffling and thinking how blessed I am just to know you.

I'm not even PMS-ing so yeah, crying. Real tears. Fat ones. Now I'll have to clean my glasses and wash my face. You owe me Kleenex. ;)

Dawn said...

OMYWORD!!! HE SAID 'AS YOU WISH'!!!!! That is so....so....*faint*

lois Brorsen said...

I have always felt this would happen. Really and truly. It is a family worth fighting for. God knows the end from the beginning and we pray daily for His mercy, grace and wisdom to be ever present in you both. I love you dearly. Always have, always will.
P.S. Still waiting on your book. Dont wait til Im too old to read _then I;ll be waiting another forever to get the audio book. :o) love, mil

TIPSY said...

Your blog touched my heart. Thank you for your for sharing. I love the way you write. I have said a prayer. May there be healing, forgiveness and restoration in your family. <><