human

I am never more aware of my human-ness than when confronted with something that is absolutely joyful...

amazing...

fantastic...

(for someone else)

but that skipped me...

and I danced with those ugly feelings today.

sitting in the cancer center, awaiting Donald's cat scan I sat talking to an older couple. The husband, outgoing and funny, is recovering from a  surgery that took fifteen hours and rerouted his innards and chemo treatments...

and

he is in remission.

and there is nothing

nothing

like the duplicity of sitting there

feeling so happy

that he IS

and yet sad because that isn't an option for Donald.

And this isn't really about being down or negative...it's just honest.  

Sunday Somethings...

I posted last week...

on Monday.

I posted this very picture and words...

only...

blogger was odd and wonky

{or I am odd and wonky...}

and it was all a mess...

So.

new week.

new (recycled) photo post.

Last week I started making homemade ranch dressing.

{see blue mason jar}

it is amazing and yummy

and easy

and cheap.

1 cup buttermilk

1 cup sour cream

1 teaspoon:

garlic powder

onion powder

parsley flakes

salt

pepper

Now, here's the thing...do not over mix 

and by over mix

I mean...

do not do much more than JUST blend the stuff...

because it breaks it down

and then you have thin dressing...

the taste ... still utterly ranch deliciousness...

but 

just

thin.

(I've seen other recipes that do 1/2 cup mayo. 1/2 cup sour cream, 1 cup buttermilk... that's an option...

I also used Greek yogurt as my ''sour cream'' in one batch)

the other beauty in the photo...

balsamic vinegar

reduced

just pour it in a sauce pan

simmer to reduce by half

and then it it on everything...

except maybe oatmeal..

sugar cookies...

seriously...I put it on salads, veggies, chicken...everything.

Last week, was also the first time I ever made tortillas...

again...

SO easy.

and the results...

well,

I made 32 in one day

and there were...

about 

possibly 

2 left by day's end... 

This week...

I'm working on homemade granola bars-

because my kids love them...

(and there will be photos and such if it's a success!)

I logged my most miles every this week...

I'm working hard this year...

and as simplistic as it sounds-

that's what it takes...

wishing

wanting

hoping

none of that changes anything

DOING

changes things...

and so emotionally, spiritually and physically I am making myself 

DO more...

I have our Sunday dinner in the crockpot...

pineapple jabanero salsa mix with bbq sauce

and poured over chicken breast...

then I'll shred and we'll have sandwiches

baked beans

and baked potatoes (also in (another) the crockpot)

My menu for the week is made:

(can you even stand it?... the waiting...to know...what.I.am.cooking?)

Monday: bean and cheese burritos (with potatoes too, if there are left overs today ...(I will cube them up and fry them off a bit and add to the burrito bar)

Spanish rice

zesty cauliflower bites

Tuesday: Lazy Lasagna

salad

homemade garlic bread sticks

Wednesday: breakfast for dinner

Thursday:Taco soup

Mexican cornbread 

Friday: homemade pizza

Today...

there is church

and lunch...

and the beach

where I will walk and watch the gulls

and listen to the crash of the waves...

and feel the sand...

and the warmth of the sun

and be thankful,

again,

for this crazy, amazing life I live...

and tomorrow...

it will happen...

Monday will come...

and I will again

find the grace to make it through another week. 

Living in the overflow-

might be my favorite theme

{it sure it teaching me to look...listen...and live}

Living In the overflow

May the GOD of hope, fill you with JOY and PEACE as you trust in HIM, so that you may OVERFLOW with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. 

Romans 15:13

A new year is here and I find myself...as  often do at the beginning...

filled with plans and ideas.

I've never been a huge resolutions person...but I do usually make goals or plans or have things I'd like to change or do...

This year is no exception...

and this year

my theme comes from the above verse...

Living Life In The Overflow

My goal this year is to become the very best me...

and I am learning

HIS overflow

fills up SO many crevices...

I'm determined to focus more on details...

to celebrate something each day...

to find and surround myself with beauty...

to read good things...

to create...

to speak 

carefully...

to take more photos 

[yes, of food...it's a free world people]

to fill my days with things that matter...

things that feed my soul...

that help me find joy...

that keep me floating around in the OVERFLOW of grace.