Reconciled

It's a new year which lends itself to thinkerly thoughts and evulations...

I've gone through phases...I'm not opposed to resolutions but it's been a bit since I've made a list. Over the last twenty or so years-I've leaned more towards a word/phrase/ or bible verse and built my year off of that.

This year's word is MORE...and it goes with the verse from Ephesians that says, ''to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine according to his power that is at work within us'' ... so my goal/endeavor/ hope for 2016 is MORE...to trust more, love more, do more, be more...

and in doing that I have to reconcile...

-that the tightness of my jeans and the busted can of biscuits feeling- isn't a phase and that I have to actively get back into daily exercise and responsible food choices...

-that I am the adult and the adulting will continue (blah)

-that we are nearing the end of college football for another season

-that sometimes faith is scary-that's why it's called  faith and not ''what I already know and how it turned out''

-that I want this year to matter .

Over the last four years I've walked paths I never imagined. I've felt gutted and faithless. I've felt elated and alone. But what I know is that I am ready for redemption....beauty from ashes...for growth and progress. We get this one life- each day, new and we get to decide.

today,
I reconcile
that I want MORE
I want it to matter.
I want to look back at this year and it be a watermark
for so many good things.

Happy New Year!